We got our first Produce box the other day. Yay for fresh produce! Each box is about $80 delivered, but considering that one head of cauliflower is $16, that is not too bad. And it is all organic and you get seasonal produce. Right now we have apples, peaches, pears, tomatoes, carrots, acorn squash, celery, potatoes and an avocado. I was finally able to color my hair, thanks to my aunt =) It was a good thing since kids were counting my gray hair! Of course, some of them may have caused the gray hair LOL My boyfriend is finally back! And he brought me roses and chocolate! Flowers are a rare thing here since they do not sell them at the store. So he hand carried flowers on the plane, which is so awesome and sweet!
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Last night was an emotionally rough day for me. This morning for that matter. I went to visit my brother's grave yesterday, so I could let him know that I finally found a good man and that I am happy. Then I saw my grandparents. That went well until my grandmother cried, which broke my heart. I had a very busy rest of the day, tying up all lose ends so I got back to my mom's house way later then planned. This upset my mom, even though it was not intentional. I would of preferred to send the last night hanging with my mom. Between that and a talk with my step-dad, I went to bed crying. My boyfriend held me and told me that everything would be okay. This morning it was hard saying goodbye, plus I had a weird conversation with my mom. It is hard feeling like half my family does not support me with this adventure because they do not understand. All I can do is wait for them to see how much happier I am and that I will be okay.
Okay, enough with the depressing stuff. I have not been updating much on the preparations because of how busy we have been! Over $300 to mail our stuff to Alaska (mostly my stuff). I sent almost 100 pounds of books I think! I have clothes, we moved out of my apartment. The move was very brutal because we both needed to move stuff and we both own a bazillion books. Ouch! I start saying my goodbyes tomorrow and Sunday morning, we are off to Anchorage!!
I have been a total emotional stress case the past week. Like crying often because I was overwhelmed and being a tad feisty. Thankfully He loves me even though I was a scary, most likely hormonal mess. I am better now that I have moved out of the apartment and now that I have my CPR/First Aid re-certification. I am so excited to leave. OMG. I cannot wait to start my new life with the man I love. I cannot wait to actually make a difference. I finally told my mom, step-dad and little brother that I am moving to Alaska. I would of preferred to do this after the road trip, but then they would have barely any notice.
There were tears, questions, gin. My mom was in shock the first conversation we had. No one really understands. I want to just tell them I am doing this because I am madly in love with Him, but until our road trip, until we have our first kiss, I feel a bit weird expressing these feelings to my family. I feel weird telling them I am moving for a guy, even though I mostly am. The next day I had lunch with just my mom. She wanted to know why I would choose to move to Alaska, to the middle of nowhere. I tried to explain what draws me to village life. I thought that was the right move. I may have been wrong. Tonight, during my grandma's birthday dinner, I was ambushed by my family. They feel I am making a rash, manic decision and not thinking things through. I guess it is hard to explain that I have been planning this for months. It is not just something I decided to do last week. i have prayed about it, wrote about it, talked to my friends about it, did research. I am following my heart, but I am not jumping blindly into this. My mom wants to know that I have deep feelings. I cannot even describe how I feel to my mom. It is so intimate. And insane. I know that this move makes no sense to anyone but us. I am okay with that. I am happy my brother seems supportive. I just hope that soon enough my family accepts my choice and will be happy for me. I cannot wait to start my new Alaskan life with the love of my life. |
AuthorI am a Colorado native who moved to Alaska for love and adventure. This journal is going to track my journey. Archives
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